Il m'aura fallu un peu de temps, mais la dernière émission
- feat. Decemberists, Clues, the Unicorns,
Pavement, Sunset Rubdown - est en ligne, ici.
Idiot job 203
Newspapers shoot their letters at me
I'm alone at last with every other me
Guardian help me, angel shoot
All you ghosts stand by and salute
And explain:
Why is everything so locked up?
Lake is empty, lake is full
People say it's a push and pull
I know I did the wrong mistake again.
Guardian help me, angel shoot
All you ghosts stand by and salute
And explain:
Why is everything so locked up?
I don't blame it on the front row
don't blame it on the ruin glass
'cause I know they stay
don't blame it on the signals
don't blame it on the steering wheel
don't blame it on the logbooks
'Cause I know they stray
Like all the cars in New York
Like all the lights on New Year
Like all these gloomy planets
You know they stay
The world is so big that we can't find each other.
Soon it will be too late we won't be young together.
I want everything perfectly aligned in my life.
I want everything magnified.
I hold you like a butterfly and squeeze with all my might.
You make me want to multiply, the warm exploding light.
Danger, danger, there you go.
I thought that you know
I wanted everything perfectly aligned in my life;
I want everything magnified.
I want everything magnified.
All day I was in a fog, all yesterdays and the day before and last weeks and more. Then while pacing for hours through the grass outside talking myself out loud, the fog started to clear. Like fog clearing around a car. I was on the other side and a thousand ideas whipping into me and touching my guitar. Now the songs come together.
Each song cancels the last one out completely. I'll find clarity again. It's not hard for me. It's a new found gift.
I hear a noise but the sound is connected to a visual image. The muscles react to the pressure of the air being pushed but that is all. A signal grows bigger and bigger, cleaner and cleaner, photographic still. The background is fading away as the clean picture begins to fill with color. Until suddenly I am staring at a glowing crisp idea. All around me the images dance with corresponding sounds. The sweet delight of clear memory.
I awoke in the very early morning, and all around mea giant wax comb. A yellow octagon of isolation, its walls made from brain fluids and mucus. I've built myself into myself, and the angels rise from the floorboards. Just above us they burst into light. All around me glowing red embers.
It's a power the breaking of wants. It's a power, the thud inside that helps me be alone. It turns people away from me again and again.
The pattern is repeated, it's a power.
I don't have to kneel to face the deep howl of nothingness. I don't have to be naked to look over into the black endlessness.
I'll sleep for as long as my unconscious can hold me.
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I am a deserter. I've left the worlds. I've broken through the fan of concerns. Clarity in all directions.
There are five songs playling in my head, they cross each other and mate, their offspring will be beautiful.
I'm not afraid to make it simple now. Just a few odd notes that have been ringing quietly in my ears since childhood, sweet little phrases bursting with an unequaled life. They are the sounds of my last few moments in life. They are the sounds that I will hear as my body dies, as my brain is spinning in recall. They will be with me and guide my body when i finally stops. And all that will be left behind me is a string of sad songs.
There is nothing to advertise when the fire licks the arm.
J'ai fait la liste de ce que j'avais à faire aujourd'hui
et ca m'a semblé pas mal, ca m'a même semblé beaucoup
quoiqu'à la rigueur faisable
J'ai fait la liste de ce que j'avais à faire cette semaine
et la vie m'a semblé plus humaine
J'ai fait la liste de ce que j'avais à faire cette année,
et finalement ça se résumait à deux ou trois choses assez précises
J'ai fait la liste de ce que j'avais à faire dans ma vie
mais en fait il n'y avait plus de quoi faire une liste
J'ai commencé la liste de ce que j'ai fait depuis cinq minutes
mais ça faisait des milliers
et j'ai dû renoncer
à compter les nuances variées
de ma façon de respirer
J'ai plutôt fait la liste de ce que j'avais à faire dans ma vie pour me calmer
mais en fait il n'y avait plus de quoi faire une liste
mais en fait il n'y avait plus de quoi faire une liste
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